Fuck a title
I sit here and just think of all this bullshit in my head idk even what to say i just want to express my feelings to everyone I want to say everything that comes in my FUCKIN head but something holds me bad I think im goin insane i think i am goin mad i need help but when your not able to talk to someone with the same troubles or same thoughts as you you always think in the back of your head are they really listening to you I am seriously thinking about dieing but i just cant do it noone is here for me to let me lay on there shoulder I see all these bullshit people everyday and how they act and how there life is just so amazing but i try so fuckin hard to be happy no matter how hard i try i can never be unless i am fucked up or something why cant i just be sober and happy huh its so hard fuck my life fuck everything i have it all noone will ever understand the things that come to my mind i hate my gifts that somewhat GOD gave me is he even real or is it just a fuckin fake if he is real then why do i hurt so much why cant my life just be perfect why cant i find someone that really loves me its just not there anyone i am so pissed all the time i am starting to become anti-socal and thats not even me i have these dark thoughts when i am alone on i just sit here and type hoping someone can see this and understand what i am goin threw i needa friend ohh why god ohh why am i so alone someone help before i kill myself i express over this bullshit but why cant i do it in person ohh why my family doesnt even know me my grandparents dont even knw my age shoesize or anything my parents think i am a angel child but im not it is bullshit that my brother malcolm knws more about me than my mom or dad so fuck it fuck it all my family hell i dont have one is over goodnight
